Monday, June 28, 2004

at the risk of looking like one of those calvinist fanatics or worse, like ian, i have decided to quote john piper on my blog. i know, i know, a little freaky and a little too "let's join the bandwagon", but it really spoke to me and so i had to share.

as some of you have noticed in my recent posts, i've been a little on the BLAH side of life lately. and i think a lot of it has to do with guilt. nothing like an unclean conscience to make you want to pray and go to church, rite? i'm sure that most of you are as nosy as i am (hence why you're reading this blog) and you are DYING to know what i'm feeling guilty over. i must apologize to you, iceegirl fan, no such luck today. while i am usually one for honesty and transparency, i'm not so much feeling like being vulnerable rite now. perhaps i will provide the juicy details later, but suffice it to say that lately, i've been looking on the past with loads of regret. (probably has something to do with my term winding down and me looking back on it and seeing a field of broken dreams, broken relationships, and burned bridges.)

anyway, i was reading in "the passion of Jesus Christ" last nite and this passage stuck out to me. it's long, i know. so feel free to skim it...or just NOT read it. (after all, that's what i do everyday on ian's blog.) but if you do take the time, i promise it is good stuff. and if it speaks to you, then i'm glad. if it doesn't, then go on to the next blog you read and forgive me for wasting your time. :0) but in case it does appeal to you, this is what the book looks like.

and you can find this quote on page 51.

and without further adieu, iceegirl productions is proud to present something too deep and true for me to have ever written on my own. (oh yeah, and emphasis added is mine)

"So here we are in the modern age—the age of science, Internet, organ transplants, instant messaging, cell phones—and our problem is fundamentally the same as always: Our conscience condemns us. We don’t feel good enough to come to God. And no matter how distorted our consciences are, this much is true: We are not good enough to come to Him.

We can cut ourselves, or throw our children in the sacred river, or give a million dollars to the United Way, or serve in a soup kitchen on Thanksgiving, or perform a hundred forms of penance and self-injury, and the result will be the same: The stain remains, and death terrifies. We know that our conscience is defiled—not with external things like touching a corpse or eating a piece of pork. Jesus said it is what comes out of a person that defiles, not what goes in (Mark 7:15-23). We are defiled by pride and self-pity and bitterness and lust and envy and jealousy and covetousness and apathy and fear—and the actions they breed. These are all “dead works.” They have no spiritual life in them. They don’t come from new life; they come from death, and they lead to death. That is why they make us feel hopeless in our consciences.

The only answer in these modern times, as in all other times, is the blood of Christ. When our conscience rises up and condemns us, where will we turn? We turn to Christ. We turn to the suffering and death of Christ—the blood of Christ. This is the only cleansing agent in the universe that can give the conscience relief in life and peace in death."