Monday, February 02, 2004

well, i'm going to go see win a date with tad hamilton tonite. i'm really excited b/c it just looks so darn cute. i'll be sure to report back on whether or not it's a winner.
i'm reading this book, twenty someone, and so far i'm really enjoying it. it talks about things like pride and integrity and such and making the decision to live your life with some "key" godly characteristics since they're so important to establish in your twenties. it's pretty cool. i have zippo life direction and i'm 23, and so that's why i picked up the book in the first place. i feel like i've screwed up so much in my few short years of life that i'm not usable by God anymore. i know that's silly, but it's still the way i FEEL though, you know? i mean, let's face it, i'm a big time sinner and major screw up. i've done things that i'm not proud of and sometimes i just want to go hang my head in shame and never face the world again. but one of the things this book is talking about (and duh, i'm just now realizing God is trying to TEACH me...gee, i wonder why it keeps coming up over and over and over again) is that i haven't screwed up beyond His forgiveness. and He loves me terribly. even though i blew it BIG TIME, He still cares. He still forgives. His mercy and grace are there for me. hallelujah!